i've always learnt about how great figures were always concerned about the big L word ---- LEGITIMACY, and used to wonder what was the big deal about it.
like why did Toyotomo Hideyoshi NOT proclaim himself Shogun despite conquering everybody.
like why did Khrushchev have to attack Stalin in his Secret Speech after coming into power.
like why does the PAP possess such an unshakable position although there are an increasing number of disgruntled citizens.
the answer is LEGITIMACY, or THE RIGHT.
you arent the legitimate girlfriend when you're a third party. you're a usurper, coming in between an official couple, and replacing the rightful girlfriend. you'll have to be in constant fear and worry of being in her shadow, whether he will regret his decision, whether you'll ever be able to fill the shoes of one whom you've cruelly betrayed. that's cos you arent the legitimate girlfriend, the fact is that, you are a THIRD PARTY.
anyway, changing blogskin soon, trying to clean the cobwebs off this blog, lest people complain im lazy!
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somehow guys would never ever feel neglected, or are even aware that they are neglecting you.
and somehow they never seem to miss you as much as you miss them.
or maybe they just dont wanna show this "Weak" side to them?
guys. =/
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ok i think that its
HUG TIME!!
this entry is for all my friends, who are probably challenging their own Goliaths at this point of time. and i just wanna offer everyone a HUG, which though cant help much, may at least let everyone know that they are not alone. My mum scolds me for not studying and doing these “useless things” and should be studying instead, but I think that it aint.
to
ting:
i know that mac has been your main source of support all this while, and that this would be the longest time that you guys are apart, and though you keep showing the "Im fine" look, can imagine how sad you must be inside la. like i've said many times, while you are more logical than the average girl, but you do have your vulnerable side too, which i think you haven showed us for a very, very long time. it's really ok to let your emotions show, i mean really no need to "chen qiang" in front of us, and pretend that you'll be fine occupying yourself or like "just have to get used to it lorx" then when actually you're constantly like undergoing emotional torture waiting for his msges, or waiting until the night for the nightly chats etc.. though i cant say that i am able to 100% feel what you're going through, my shoulder, my company is always ready for you, through times when the misses get too bad, when you just need a listening ear for your insecurities, doubts and worries. you are NOT an unreasonable gf ok? in fact i think mac really appreciates and cherishes your understanding nature and support.
to
wen:
girl, know that you're DAMM stressed with work now, and i think it's affecting your mood now, and hence your r/s with joel. totally know what you're going through, dont let the unhappiness from school life spill over to the love between you guys..and i know that he understands and would be extra patient:) know it really sucks to produce on demand, like a baby factory, 'cos i know each of your creations/ products/ pieces is like a baby to u, borne through hours and hours of planning, sketching, painstakingly and lovingly creating something out of nothing. and to have it slammed, really suffers a big blow to your self-esteem and confidence. but you've come this far, and you know it yourself that this IS what you CAN do. and you must know that in the future, like my ex-colleague used to say, some bosses/ clients would just stop you at the second slide/ first 5 mins of your presentation, and just dismiss your hardwork as rubbish. i know it sucks, but i believe that the shit now will equip you with what it takes to be a real architect. wish we could provide you with some fresh insight/ ideas, though i think it would be more of a hindrane than help..but when you're really really stressed, and need like company for jogging, shopping therapy, or coffee, feel free to call me ok?
to
li:
it’s been really hard on you, and I totally understand what you’re going through with a not very sensitive guy. But his down-to-earth ness, practicality and “woodeness” is what makes him special to you right? Trust me, with time, as both of you learn through these small conflicts, you guys would gain a better understanding of each other, and though you do need the ignition of that special spark, e mo qi/ foundation can only be built over time. That’s why they often say that couples are lovers as well as good friends. I don’t call it “conditioning” la, just that you are slowly understanding him, and know what he’s like, on e way to becoming “lao fu lao qi” already. Though he doesn’t know how to express his love very well, and may unintentionally hurt you, I think he has made his choice right from the start, and that would be you. At the end of the day, despite all the quarrels, disagreements, you do know that you rather not live life without him.
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lix:
i can only say..follow your heart..'cos you should know what we wanna tell you by now..and dont be afraid to listen to what your heart really wants, be it remaining silent, or shouting out loud. at least let there be no regrets, such that down the road, when anything happens, you'll be able to look back with no regrets. what will be yours, will be yours. and if things dont go your way, maybe he just isnt that "missing piece" in your life, and that he's not fortunate to have such a sweet girl as you. but you'll DEFINITELY find that one that will hold your hand an walk through life's ups and downs with you, no need to envy the couples now, you'll have a love that will make you feel like the most xin fu girl in the world.
erm i dont think i've left out anyone right? here's the BIG HUG for everyone who's feeling down at the moment, and DO remember that you guys arent walking alone ok? [ nope it isnt an effort to sound ghostly. and sorry if it sound liverpool-ish ]
sometimes, a hug is more than enough.
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once claimed that i could live without my hp for a week and still feel nothing, but it's been 4 days since my hp's taken for repairs + plus msn real screwed these few days + i dont interact much with my family + cant find the paper where i wrote down some numbers = feel damn isolated now!! on the SIM social scale now, its CHILLI RED!!
I MISS EVERYONE!!!
only respite is that can see you guys tmr during lec, lessons with BA KWA dont count.
CNY is a chore, despite what others say, 'cos you gotta clean the house, shove around with thousand others in only that few shopping areas in singapore, go marketing [ has anyone tried carrying a whole 36 pax carton of CANNED drinks + 5kg oil], and cook like hell for a bunch of bloody ingrate relatives. conclusion : NOT FUN.
i want to sslleeeppppp.
i feel ill and terribly guilty. finished a whole packet of van houten's chocolate-coated raisins all by myself. damn. now feeling seriously like puking.
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announcement:
CAN SOMEONE ACCOMPANY ME TO THE NATIONAL MUSUEM OF SINGAPORE FOR THE LOUVRE EXHIBIT???????<br>
it's only $4 for students!!!!
the exhibit will feature famous Greek statues, from 2000 years back, but dont know if they are real la. on temp loan from the Louvre musuem in France, which is another DAMN COOL PLACE!!
imagine, you're seeing with your own eyes, something tangible from like at least 2600 years back!! anyone interested PLEASE tell me ok?? though i'll probably behave like a kid in a candy shop there, so be prepared to be very paiseh.
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MY HANDPHONE FELL INTO THE TOILET BOWL.
AGAIN!!!!!!
ting's deathly hallows managed to escape its watery grave though.
so in the mean time, DO NOT MSG/CALL my hp! call my house!
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