ok i guess all my girlfriends know that ive been super depressed lately 'cos of a particular someone. it really sucks to have someone else dictating your every emotion and every shred of feeling in you! what's worse, exams are round the corner, in just 9 days time!!!! OMFG
so i really wanna thank you all for being there, listening to my contradictory complains and excuses, like ting says " i really wanna shake you awake!" really appreciate all that you guys have said, and i DO know that you're all right..but i'll like to say that, i do know what im doing, and am prepared for any consquences my choices would bring me. but you guys really rock!!
on a more positive note, the only ray of sunshine in this endless squall of clouds blanketing my entire horizon,
i think his parents have accepted me!!
which seriously, means lots, and i bet that those in the knowing would know what a big step forward it is!
went to his uncle's wedding dinner at one fullerton's palm beach restaurant ( not worth it) on a moment's notice, thanks to li and hm for shopping around cwp for presentable shoes! it was fucking boring, what do you expect of a family gathering, plus e food was not really worth the price. and his dad was actually civil to me, e.g. asking darren to peel a crab for me, heeding my directions when he was driving, and even asking darren to get me a chair so i need not study on the floor! yay!!!=D was smiling like some crazy idiot the whole night=)
anyway this is the spoonful of crab that he reluctantly peeled in the face of everybody's pressure. lazy bugger initially protested by saying that i dont eat crabs anyway -_-. ps. he explicitly ordered a pic to be taken, "to show off to XX" that my guy CAN help me peel stuff too.
this is his sis's lousy moth-eaten excuse for a dog, Lucky. i aint very fond of toy dogs, and this dog perfectly reinforces my prev opinion. face looks buang, and i dont care if its a shih-tzu worth 1k. once, tried to bite me, havent forgiven him for that, and tried to hump my leg ytd + oral sex-ed my foot. suddenly reminded of Freud's stages of personality development, ie. oral and genital fixation. dont know if it could be applied to a dog though.
so i do hope things are gonna be better, sigh.. if only he was constantly behaving this way.
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